little more than useless?

I was thinking, as I walked to the bathroom here at work, that I'm not very useful to the Kingdom. I feel like I'm not winning people to Christ, I'm not effectively leading my lifegroup guys, I'm not doing this right. This is what it feels like, not saying that's the truth. Raising support for this internship is hard, real hard, and I'm not that happy anymore cause life is hard, and I'm partially basing my happiness on my circumstances. JB and I were talking about how during growth, life isn't all that fun. But once you get through it, you go through the fire that God put you through, it gets a lot better. I can't wait for support raising to be over, I just want to spend time with my guys.