today was somewhat frustrating, and i am quite glad it is over. i am being blamed, by the kids mind you, for doing things that i never did, things that could get me on the naughty list with the parents or maybe fired. it's just so frustrating! i guess i need to be even more laissez faire with the kids, i need to cover my bases. harumph...
on an upnote, youth group was great tonight, they even let me mix the worship which was a treat. i truly miss doing that at GCL, it always made me seem like a little boy again, discovering a new world over the fence.
"writers write" my dad always says. that is something that has been calling my heart as of late. i've been itching to write, not sure what, just put something down and stretch those cold metatarsals. i miss the simplicity of short poetry, and i would enjoy doing a piece in the style of Pettigrew.
my faith seems to be becoming something deeper within my flesh. i say that somewhat hesitantly because it would seem obvious that such a beautiful, developing object be completely consumed within it's beholder. yet, my faith is taking new turns in how it affects my thought processes and the 'what-if's' become nominalized with maturity. it's funny how the weight of anger is lifted once the pressurized words are released into the night sky. i took a walk tonight after matt and i left the movie's early, frustrated at something that i assumed was God's fault. and all the words that i think i need to say seem to dissipate as they float off my tongue, loosing their urgency to the sound of the busy street across the lake. anger and selfishness are all in vain when confronted with the one who's Hands hold the ferocity of the Universe, keeping all life under His thumb. may i squeeze into a wrinkle of that palm as i wrestle and rest with the fact that despite my longing to find a heavy handed tongue in the night sky, He has all my deepest questions answered before the thought hits my deepest synapse.
Wednesday, July 11
Sunday, July 8
uphill
wow, i haven't posted in a while! this is my first post of the summer and my first post on my new macbook! it was an exciting day on friday when i unpacked this beast, i was quite giddy.
being home for the summer has been wonderful, as i spend time with my family, especially my little brother, i am constantly reminded of the genetic overlap that we five share. we are all similar, yet completely different, all at the exact same time. there is something intangibly beautiful and innately secure about family, which i did not know very fondly in my adolescence. needless to say, i have become quite appreciative of this.
switching gears, i have become very convicted of my level of evangelism. after all, "if you love Me, you will follow my commandments." i want my coworkers to know the coming wrath and the saving grace of our Almighty, but i just can't seem to get conversations where they need to be. "church" is staring to feel more and more pathetic as a way of bringing up the subject of eternity. right now my book of choice is "way of the master" by ray comfort, which discusses the biblical method of evangelism which uses the Law (10 Commandments) to bring around conviction of sin and the knowledge of the purpose of the Cross. without the Law, the Cross is frivolous and powerless. i want them to know so badly, for no man knows the day or the hour. i have been thinking of going down to weston town center and passing out tracks. what's the worst that can happen? see Jesus early?
let us be Your hands and feet. please.
being home for the summer has been wonderful, as i spend time with my family, especially my little brother, i am constantly reminded of the genetic overlap that we five share. we are all similar, yet completely different, all at the exact same time. there is something intangibly beautiful and innately secure about family, which i did not know very fondly in my adolescence. needless to say, i have become quite appreciative of this.
switching gears, i have become very convicted of my level of evangelism. after all, "if you love Me, you will follow my commandments." i want my coworkers to know the coming wrath and the saving grace of our Almighty, but i just can't seem to get conversations where they need to be. "church" is staring to feel more and more pathetic as a way of bringing up the subject of eternity. right now my book of choice is "way of the master" by ray comfort, which discusses the biblical method of evangelism which uses the Law (10 Commandments) to bring around conviction of sin and the knowledge of the purpose of the Cross. without the Law, the Cross is frivolous and powerless. i want them to know so badly, for no man knows the day or the hour. i have been thinking of going down to weston town center and passing out tracks. what's the worst that can happen? see Jesus early?
let us be Your hands and feet. please.
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